She broke up with me but is obviously confused?

Ok so I am the guy and me and my ex were each others first for everything. We met when we were 15 and 16 and we dated for 2 years. We fell completely in love and felt like we had just met at the wrong time because we were to young. So we decided to break up because I was going to college 4 hours away and I admit i was a dick the first semester of college because i didn't give her the attention she deserved. I was scared of being serious being so young and I felt like I just wanted my space but still told her I loved her (and i did) and when I came home we would hook up. This continued for 2 years but as the years went by I wanted to date her more and more. She asked to be my boyfriend a few times over the 2 years but I always said I was afraid of commitment. But we still considered each other best friends and we would talk literally everyday and say we loved each other. It was like we were dating and I really was the best man I could be to her but i just didn't like the title. I have no idea why i was so stupid because I never stopped loving her. I didn't know the extent of it but after talking to her roommate (she went to a different college the year after me but we were still 4 hours apart) apparently she would get extremely upset because i didn't want the title and the distance was really really hard on her. I still came and visited her several times over the 2 year span and we were always extremely happy to see each other. When she was still in high school whenever she needed a date I would come home and be that guy for her. But about 2 months she ended things with me because she said one day everything clicked and she realized she would have to go through this pain for another 2 years before we could have the relationship we wanted and she decided she was tired of waiting for me. She had also been hanging out with this one guy in particular quite a bit and I was getting really jealous but she kept reassuring me that he was nothing to her. He was just fun to be with but she would never want to date him because he likes drugs to much and she is really against that. Drugs tore her family apart. But the she said the main reason she ended things was because she was starting to have feelings for this other guy mainly because he was the exact opposite of me. She also said she had a dream about us getting married and she said that freaked her out a lot. She ended up making out with this kid the same night she broke up with me. She never was friends with him before college because he was in my grade but they went to the same high school so he is really close even though it is now summer break. I was a complete mess and chased her for almost 2 months. It was almost summer time and I was so excited to spend my summer with her. I tried to start no contact twice but both times she ended up texting me a few days later because she was worried maybe something happened to me. When she did this both times I went back into panic mode acting depressed and trying to talk her into being with me again but she always said it was to late. I had my chance and she said at one point even though I kept turning her down she loved me more than she loved herself. After meeting with her to talk 7 weeks after the break up i demanded to know the extent of the new relationship with this new kid. Apparently they have been hanging out usually only for a little while almost everyday and they had started having sex. I asked if she was falling in love with him and if it was a RR and she said she could not love again for a very long time because she still loved me but was not in love with me anymore. She also said she has really started to like this kid a lot and for some reason the drugs do not matter. But the real kicker is she is transferring schools to be closer to home so if she stays with this new guy she will just be starting a new long distance relationship. After hearing she is having sex with this kid i told her she had to pick between him and me and i was not going to talk to her if she was having sex with someone else. It has only been 2 days since i started this no contact phase but I am much more serious about this one. She says she will always want to be my best friend and talk because i am her rock and I have helped her through so much. She said she wanted me to date someone else before we got back together because we have never been with anyone else and she felt like that would be like setting ourselves up for failure down the road and now was the time to date other people but I cannot stand the idea of someone else touching my girl. It took losing her for me to realize what I had and now I want to commit to her. She is a very good girl. she has spent a whole year at a party school and has still never drank. She says it is not a RR but it seems to me like it is. She said she has gotten over me but not completely. She wants me to see other people but when I went on a date she got extremely upset. Idk what to do.